MY NAME IS ON BROADWAYWORLD AND PLAYBILL.COM!!!!  (Totally isn't freaking out or anything). 

http://www.broadwayworld.com/viewcolumn.cfm?colid=14735

http://www.playbill.com/news/article/104634.html


Off to stress about a million and one things, while procrastinating instead of actually being productive, but WHO EVEN CARES???  MY NAME IS NEXT TO LAUREN KENNEDY'S ON BROADWAY WORLD, AND NOT FAR FROM AN ARTICLE FEATURING KRISTIN CHENO-PUP!!!  (I love Tess Gards)

(Oh and Kiss Me Kate auditions...were FUN)

I don't know who is more stupid, me or my schedule.  i'm so so so overwhelmed.  i wish representative from some cute little college somewhere would just come, take my hand and say "it's ok melanie.  we like you."    i just want to know if everything is going to be ok, come 2nd semester, and i wish i had little elves to help me with this whole irritable college application process, because I DO NOT LIKE IT SAM I AM!!!!  I DO NOT LIKE IT ON THE COMPUTER, I DO NOT LIKE IT WITH A TUTOR.  I DO NOT LIKE THE COMMON APPLICATION, I DO NOT LIKE IT ON VACATION!!!  I DO NOT LIKE IT IN A CHAIR (OR AT BUILD A BEAR), I DO NOT LIKE IT ANYWHERE!  

And if one more person suggests that I sort out my priorities, I'm going to pull someone's hair out.  THERE'S NO WAY TO PRIORITIZE WHEN EVERYTHING IS OF IMPORTANCE.  Hello college board,  I'm Melanie Elizabeth and I'm on crack.  You've successfully driven me out of my mind, and things have only just begun. There are actually good things happening (such as the chorus line dvd..hip hop horrrraayyyy), but I'm too much of a nutcase to appreciate anything.  And I'm turning into a bad combination of my grandma, and my mother when she's mad.  I DON'T LIKKKEEE IITTTTTT!!!!!!  And the worst problem is, by the time I finish sending out my applications, there won't even be money left for therapy....FOR ME.  I told you I'm not ready to go to college.  I'm like 12.  WTF???

I DONT EVEN HAVE A DRESS FOR MY BROTHER'S BAR MITZVAH, OR HOMECOMING, TODD WON'T LET ME TELL MY PARENTS HE'S A HOMOOOOSSEEXXXUUAALLL, SO THEY CAN SPARE ME THE SEX TALK WHEN PROM ROLLS ALONG, I'M APPLYING EARLY TO EMERSON, MY BIRTHDAY'S IN 7  6 DAYS, I HAVE AUDITIONS FOR URINETOWN ON MY BIRTHDAY, AND IM WHORING MYSELF OUT IN FRONT OF THE SCHOOL ON THAT DAY AS WELL.  TOMORROW IS JEWISH DAY # 2 AND I HAVE NO ONE TO TAKE MY SHIFT AT WORK.  SATURDAY'S CALL BACKS  FOR URINETOWN, AND THE NEXT DAY IM SUPPOSED TO HAVE A PRIVATE LESSON WITH A WOMAN IN THE CITY TO PREPARE ME FOR COLLEGE AUDITIONS, BUT I HAVE NO MONOLOGUES AND NO SONGS TO WORK WITH AS OF NOW.  TALK ABOUT PREPARATION.  OH AND AS WE SPEAK MY DAD AND MY GRANDMOTHER'S 90 YEAR OLD BOY FRIEND ARE ARGUING ABOUT POLITICS AND RELIGION AT THE TABLE.  Just in case I do something crazy like rob a bank, or a zoo, someone can print this entry out and read it court, so maybe someone might have mercy on me.

I'm gonna go down and pretend that I remember how to socialize about things that aren't negative and don't involve myself.  I'm not even hungry.  GGGGAAAHHHHHH!!!

First day was pretty awesome actually until it came to a rocky rocky end.  For starters, I do happen to like my schedule a lot.  It's going to get much busier second semester, which sucks a little bit, but I'll just take it one day at a time.  It's so weird that I'm like the big woman on campus, and I'm not even 5 feet tall, but I definitely do enjoy the priveleges and the whole senior aura.  I also like going off campus (legally) A LOT.  So that's the happy, exciting stuff, and now for our uummm feature presentation...

Life Life Life.  I saw the Music Man last weekend which was gorgeous, and brilliant, and hung out at the cast party after almost getting killed several times in Catherine's car.  This week has been hell week for my show.  Our show seemed to go nowhere until yesterday when we did 2 rehearsal performances that went pretty darn well, minus the few eff-ups here and there. We had a bunch of different camps and organizations there, and they were a pretty rowdy but lousy audience, and they definitely didnt appreciate me and Kenicke's little make out session.  I mean I know they're like 5, but jeez watch a soap opera or something.  But anyways, today are the harcdcore performances for the public.  I'm pretty excited and maybe even a little nervous, which I like to think is a good thing because it means I care, and that I'm going to invest every last bit of energy I have into these shows, and that I might even miss the show.  Could you imagine?  I've actually become fairly close with this group of cast members I met just 3 weeks ago.  It never fails.  I guess there's no such thing as doing a show without ever growing attached to the cast and the show itself. 

Alright...signing out now.  I think I'll have some tea and scones...minus the scones.  Love to all, and maybe if Todd decides to bootleg the show, I can get some clips up.

Ze Recording is finished.  I basically never ever want to hear my voice again, but I'm happy with it.  Of course there's definitely things I could improve on, and things that more time with a vocal coach would have helped, since I'm much more comfortable singing on a live stage, as opposed to recording.  If I ever actually do that for real I'd have a lot of questions and a lot of things I'd want to fix, but it's the best I can do for now...I think.  And if I sound sort of unsure about it, it's because I've been sitting in a room for 2 hours listening to every single flaw.  It kind of gets to you.  You start to block out all the good, if you know what I'm saying.  It's gonna take a little while before I'm ready to hear some hardcore constructive criticism.  That's still a little touchy as of now, but I'm sure there's someone that will kick me in the face and make me feel a little more secure.  EEEEKKKKK.  

Oh and Grease is uuuhhh....coming along.  I'm actually growing to like the Pink Ladies.  I think we work pretty well together, now that we've sort of established a relationship.

....EL TERMINE...

WWWOOWWSSWEERSSS, it is Sunday night, and I'm exhasuted.  I saw the Wedding Singer this week, which I would see again in 2.7 seconds.  It was just delicious, and funny, and perfect, and I have never seen more unique signatures in any cast.  So Kudos to them.  This weekend I recorded my demo for college and for life in general, and it was exhausting.  I have 5 songs done, and we're doing the post production stuff on Tuesday.  It was a lot of work, but hopefully I'll be happy with the end result, which I will have hard copies of on Tuesday as well...eeekk.  *crosses fingers*  Right now I should be memorizizing lines and what not, since I have to be completely off book by tomorrow, but of course I'm not.  I think I know a lot actually.  Or maybe I'm just kidding myself. 

TESS IS ALSO HOME FROM COSTA RICA TODAY...ACTUALLY PROBABLY TONIGHT BECAUSE I'M STILL UNABLE TO REACH HER, BUT GEEZ IT FEELS LIKE I HAVEN'T SEEN HER IN A MONTH....OH WAIT...I HAVEN'T!!!!  So excited to actually hear her voice, as sketchy as that sounds.

And now I might just go try out my new Herbal Essence shampoo (I'm expecting one of those showergasms like on the commercial)  and shaving products, or read some more of "The Nanny Diaries" (LOVE IT!), or be a good girl and get all OCD with my script.  Don't you just love summer?  My life is like good scarmbled eggs....light and fluffy. Ok so not exactly...but right now that's the best I can come up with.

Guess who's babysitting at a huge house, with one sleeping 5 year old, on a niicee puter, and finally making some money as she does it......ME!!  This is the life!  The little boy (Ben) likes Wicked too.  He asked me all about the green makeup, and the "flying."  I also built this insane lego thing with him.  Who knew I actually still had patience for such things?  Basically we bonded, so hopefully this will become a regular gig, while I wait for Build a Bear to decide they need to hire someone aka me...GGRRR!!!

It still doesn't feel like summer, and BTC was kind of disappointing on Thursday....not gonna lie.  It just did not feel the same, but that makes sense because it isn't the same.  It hasn't been for a long time.  But people leave, they get older, directors change...you know how it goes. 

Gonna try and dance my butt off tomorrow and Monday.  I might even take a pilates class with my mom.  Cute right? 

Oh yea and it's pretty nice to have an IPOD again, especially since my brother even threw in a super squishy case, that provides hours and hours of entertainment for my hands.  

YUMMY!